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I’ve been posting whiny Facebook statuses regarding the Station Fire, but as it grows, and starts to claim lives, I’m leaving off the witty remarks in favor of stunned reverence. We could see flames on nearby ridges Friday night when the Atwater street party was happening. I snapped a picture on Saturday on my way [...]

I’ve had no auditions since wrapping the short film. My intuition tells me I’m doing something wrong, and should fix it. But intuition isn’t always right, and it’s likely just a random break, for no reason. My headshots are the same, my resume has one more credit on it, and submissions are still being sent. [...]

The electricity went out today at 3:00 pm. And it didn’t just go out all at once, it flickered out, like a dying candle flame. Then it kept threatening to come back, trickling into all our appliances, making the microwave chirp frantically, causing the TV’s “on” light to blink morse code, sending the bathroom light [...]

Although, my remaking is on a much smaller scale. Also, I’m already done. I get a sense of accomplishment, and to know that what I planted will grow for a long time and be enjoyed by the people who own and visit the area. The new president has no such luxury. He faces enormous tasks, [...]

I know most people aren’t down with the idea of hanging out with their folks. But I kind of like it. We stayed an extra three days in Vegas (well, Vegas-adjacent) just to spend some quality goof-off time. My parents are pretty great, and always have been. They support my dreams and my creativity, they [...]

I’m temporarily engaged in manual labor. It’s an interesting return. My delicate fingers are getting filthy with soil. Maybe they aren’t quite so delicate, after all. But I have been getting some nice landscaping done, even as the freezing winds of Granada Hills blow straight up the back of my shirt and make me think [...]

I don’t belive in karma, let’s be clear. Horrible people go to their graves having perpetrated awful crimes, and they are never held to account for it, nor suffer proportionate retribution. Wonderful, magnanimous people spend their lives digging themselves out of holes that they have not dug (story of Job, you Judeo-Christians out there?). I [...]

It started rolling in this evening, obscuring the conjunction of the Moon, Venus, & Jupiter, and making everything look flat and close, like a movie set. It’s spooky to be out in the mist at night, where sound is muffled and you feel like anything — anything at all — could come out of it. [...]

I saw through a fog most of the day. There was nausea, but it seemed as if it was inside my head more than my stomach. I’m not sure what caused it. The problem is, when you work for yourself (or are unemployed; sometimes the essence of both is the same, except if you’re collecting [...]

So much to be thankful for. That I’m not allergic to alcohol is primary right now. I am glad I can have a few drinks with friends and not go overboard. To be able to share good times with good people makes life worth living. Still, it’s all about communication. If you have an open [...]